Memory's edge

I went out for drinks the other night with a friend. This friend is younger than me, and she looks young even for her age. I'm used to getting carded when I go out, especially when I'm with someone who looks young. Our server asked to see our IDs, he looked over Heidi's, handed it back, then took mine. After he found the date he let out a loud "Whoa!!!" (As in, holy shiiiit duuuuudddde!! You're OOOLLLDDD!) Then, a funny comment to cap it off ... "Way to stay well preserved!"

Ugh. I guess I'm getting old. I don't feel like it. Oddly enough, even that didn't make me feel old. But, it was funny. And, strange.

One thing that *might* be an indication that I am in fact getting old is that I am forgetting a lot of simple stuff. Though, I don't necessarily attribute that to age. I think, especially recently, there's just too much stuff going into my head. It's like Homer Simpson says:

"Every time I learn something new, it pushes some old stuff out of my brain."

So, this amused me, and I'll likely forget if I don't have a picture or some words to "prove" to my failing memory that it once happened. So, there. Done, recorded. Now, I don't remember why it was so important ... hmmm ... not important, amusing, remember?

okay.

Earlier today I *thought* I remembered something. I was walking home with the doggy and I remembered some video footage I shot of a friend with my little snapshot digital camera (I love technology!) so I took my camera to the backyard and planned to lay there and watch the video while swinging in my hammock.

I flipped through the pictures that I had just taken earlier on my walk, then got to a picture I took of a bridge a couple of weeks earlier ... and then back to tonight's pictures from the walk!

Hey!! What happened to my video!? And ... Who was the video of? And when was it? I must have been drinking since I don't have a very good memory of it - but I remember when I was taking the video that I wasn't sure how well the stuff would come out because it was so rushed and on the fly - I was trying to get my camera to the right setting for video in a moment that really had to be recorded.

But ... What was the moment? I must have been drunk. But ... When was the last time I was drunk enough that I wouldn't remember who/what of a moment like that.

Years before I bought this camera is when.

It's bad enough that the love of my life is in the parallel universes of my dreams and I can only visit him on rare occasions ... Now I can't even distinguish between the places. And, can't remember who I can't take pictures of!

My dream technology: A digital "dream" camera. I want recorded images and sound of what's going on in the world of my head while I sleep. Is someone working on this technology? Can I submit a request?